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No, I’m Not a Blogger

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When someone asks me about my blog, this is how the convo usually goes:

Everyman: Do you have a blog?

Me: Yes, I do.

Everyman: Ah, you’re a blogger. Nice.

Me: No, I’m not a blogger.

Everyman: But…you do own a blog and write stuff in it, don’t ya?

Me: Yes, I do.

Everyman: So, that makes you a blogger.

Me: No, I’m not a blogger.

Everyman: But you write in your blog. Naturally and inevitably, *that* makes you a blogger.

Me: No, I’m not a blogger.

Everyman: Yes, you *are* a blogger.

Me: No, I’m *not* a blogger.


Me: …

Everyman: Y’know what, you’re right. You’re not a blogger--

Me: No, I’m not a blogger.

Everyman: --you’re a broken record.

Please let me make clear of something before you get all indignant by my hipster-esque too-cool-to-call-myself-a-blogger stance. I’m well aware that I’m supposed to call myself a ‘blogger’. Heck, I used to refer myself as one back in the day when I was a fledgling blog owner. But now, I never really refer to myself as one because the said term, in one way or another, doesn’t do it for me. I mean, imagine saying the word: Blogger. Blog-ger. Bllloooggerrr. Blech. Yuck. When I try saying that I’m a blogger it makes me feel like I am human blob who rolls about in an ungainly manner in the mud. A blobby blogger. That, however illogical it may sound, is reason enough for me not to call myself a *shudders* blogger. I hope that sheds light on the matter.

P.S. And as much as I really want to, I’m not calling myself a writer, too. Saying that is well akin to calling oneself a doctor after administering a basic first aid to minor injury.

P.P.S. No, I’m not a hipster, either. Just so you know.

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12 January 2015 at 9:42 PM

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Rās as-Sanah al-Hijriyah

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Today marks the first day of month Muḥarram of year 1434 H, the start of a new Islamic calendar year.

Hiǧrah (also transliterated as Hijrah), in general, means migration. Historically, in Islam, the said word holds a high importance in Islamic religious dates as it was the day when Nabī Muḥammad SAW migrated from Makkah (Mecca) to Madīnah (Medina). Still, its significance shouldn’t be restricted to the historical point-of-view, as hiǧrah is more than just a geographical transition. In essence, it signifies a quest for a setting more beneficial to constructive and continuous endeavour, and a progression of moving to that environment.

With the battle scars I’ve acquired along the way, my transition hasn’t always been easy, thus far. And owing to that, there were times when it was easy to overlook how great, meaningful and gratifying the journey has been, also the small accomplishments that I’ve achieved along the way. But ultimately, I hope that I’ll persevere and make myself a better person through it, for I know, my personal hiǧrah can be the most powerful single learning experience of my life…inšāʾAllāh.

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15 November 2012 at 8:09 AM

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Long Hiatus

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‘Tis me, Yours Truly, again. And I’m back.

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7 October 2011 at 2:59 PM

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Make This Known

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Back when I had my first weblog in year 2008, I didn’t care about hoarding as many readers/followers as I could. Because to me, the whole blogging business was only about recording my life events that had happened over a period of time--not marketing them. Just like what one does when one has a personal diary. Soon after a few months of being a solo reader of my own blog though, I started to gain two or three avid blog readers which I thought was amazing, because it certainly had never crossed my mind that anyone would be interested in my daily (or rather, monthly) anecdotes. I guess since then, I began to get actively involved in the blogging sphere--replying comments, commenting on people’s posts, following other bloggers, and the lot. It was great and I enjoyed it immensely as most of us were a part of a close-knit blogger community.

Yes, at first it was all fun. Getting to know people, making new friends, and all that. However by nature, I’ve never been an extrovert. I’ve always loved being an anonymous mortal and a boring wallflower, believe you me. So, living in the limelight makes me feel uneasy and that’s one of the reasons why I stopped blogging and subsequently left my fourth blog (where I’d a fairly good number of readers). But then again, like the age-old adage says, to err is human but to keep changing one’s mind is even more so. So for that reason, I created Soliloki on and started to blog again. Besides, once a blogger will always be a blogger.

Initially though, I tried really hard to steer clear of revealing this new weblog of mine after leaving the old one back in October. I only publisized Soliloki to some of my closest schoolmates since I was still feeling limelight-shy (and still am). I suppose, I’m now ready to reveal Soliloki to the masses because I kind of miss the close rapport I used to have with other fellow bloggers.

And I hope that I’ll not ever regret make this known to the public, cause I have a feeling that I am going to feel sort of antsy about this (oh boy, this is so not bueno).

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20 November 2010 at 4:59 PM

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Feet in Mouth

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I’m doing it again--walking the talk with both feet in mouth. Why? Well, the answer lies ahead.

I got to brace myself now, for it’s time for a makeover of my existing blogging game plan. OK, not that I’ve any kind of plans established in the first place. Besides, if I really did have one, I’d probably stick to it only for a split second before mentally archiving it to my plausible-but-hopeless-endeavor folder. So, the feat of having a blogging strategy is most likely doomed to failure from the beginning. But, for this particular occasion, I’m willing to do a one-eighty and bend my blogging principles just a bit. Well, not to say that I’ve any, by the way. ‘Tis just a figure of speech. But, of course we know that already.

Alright, prologue over. Now, let’s move on to what I’m about to say lest my minute and volatile memory suddenly crashes and loses all my saved data. I wanted to get all of this down on the slat before I forget everything because my capability to retain information what little I usually remember is unreliable. So, what was I saying? Ah, yes, if you have read my earlier post Here for Good, you’d know that my perpetual laziness and non-existent life are the key ingredients to my on-and-off-but-mostly-off relationship with Soliloki. And I’m ashamed of that (sorta). Well, that’s about to change, folks.

See, I got a verbal comment on my last post from a fellow friend about my semi-hiatus, so I’m now mulling over to increase the average rate of posts published per month on Soliloki. I’m all aware that battling with laziness and rummaging around for interesting stories to write are not easy, but I shall try--try being the operative word--to write new posts more often. Once a week possibly. At worst, three posts per month.

Having said that, I hope this time my both-feet-in-mouth act is worth it. And will truly transpire. With a bit of luck, this will be the last time my long-suffering mouth is housing my two feet after bearing the pain throughout the 25 years of my existence. Too bad a piece of duct tape over mouth has never been seen as a chic fashion trend.

*Peering down*

Hm, at least my feet are clean this time.

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15 November 2010 at 12:27 AM

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Here for Good

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[Photo: Mahalo Ukulele]

I knew the ukulele I bought back in July would turn out to be this way: Another fickle fixation of mine. It’s just like most of my past leisure pursuits that first started out with a lot of gusto and eventually lost their charm before they even had a good go at developing into something more constant. Before the uke, my previous blogs were victims of my fickle-ness, too. And in fact, I just dumped one of the old blogs today (oh dear Lord, didn’t it feel so liberating).

Well, talking about my blog (this particular one, of course), I’d not say that I’m giving Soliloki the boot too nor do I have any intention to do so (I’ll still keep in touch with my virtual journal of course, although, this is certainly not the fresh-post-daily kind of blog I intended to start off as in the first place). Actually, it was the hunch I sensed from the very beginning, that I felt this project was fated to be a victim of my own negligence and letdown. Even so, I carried on this mission with such eagerness and in good spirits that I declared to religiously post a new blog every single day, just to satisfy my jumbo appetite for sharing my thoughts with the masses. Too bad the buzz of blogging has rapidly diminished over time. Regretfully though, I owe a big part of this dwindling enthusiasm to my everlasting devotion to idleness and the critical deficiency of appealing--even remotely so--happenings in my life, and so has made me feel that thinking and writing about my life affair is such a massive taxing effort (albeit only writing about my thoughts). Besides, it’s not like I’ve any worth-writing topics to tell about, anyway.

Regardless of everything though, I do believe every cloud has a silver lining. So I’ve chosen to cash in on this episode for what it’s worth, because I know this event opens up a window to add a new post to Soliloki and generate interesting ideas for the following posts. I may well not be the shiniest penny in the moneybox but that does not mean I’m so dim-witted that I cannot recognize this opportunity. Anyhow, as usual, I’ll be sleeping through winter (so to say) for at least a few weeks before re-appearing on Soliloki along with some interesting posts I hope to dig up here and there.

Editorial side note: Uh-oh. I just realized that I’ve just maneouvred myself into doing easier-said-than-done task by stating that the subsequent posts would be interesting. Hm, maybe the silver lining of the cloud is not that silvery after all. Or perhaps, I’m kind of daft. Oh, well.

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26 October 2010 at 10:25 PM

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‘Tis not uncommon to see a first-time blogger introduces themselves when they appear for their debuts in the blog world. Those newbies’ ice-breaking modus operandi is usually limited to giving out the staple statistics--their names, ages, geographical locations, relationship statuses, physical attributes, et cetera. Fairly standard and predictable, I daresay. Boring.

However, I don’t mind boring. So, being boring is what I shall be this time.

So, what am I like? Exactly two and half decades old, a little over five feet high, and roly-poly is what I am physically. As for the mental and emotional aspects, I’m just like any other girl you know (I guess). So, that’s me.

Now, about my blog.

The blog title, Soliloki, means soliloquy in Malay. On the words of an online dictionary,

The speech in which a character reveals his thoughts to the audience but not to other characters in the play.

This space is intended as a vent for the quick, impulsive and not so impulsive self-conversations (i.e. thoughts) which, after finding their way in, grow roots and evolve into something massive enough for me to notice their existence in my already jammed mess of a brain.

I welcome you to read and enjoy this, but please remember, I’m in no way liable for the consequences and would like to flatly express that I don’t pay for either damaged computer devices or muddled brains.

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30 May 2010 at 2:37 PM

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