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The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch is one of the very few great talks I’ve ever seen to date and basically, it’s about achieving your childhood dreams. What an inspiring lecture, it is. Watching the talk often gets me thinking about myself in relation to Pausch’s achievement of his dreams--he’d dreams and I also have dreams, he’d achieved most of them, but have I achieved some of them, at least?

Be that as it may though, why should I care too much about finding my dreams and achieving them, when my dreams lean more towards getting the bounty of worldly joys? No, I don’t mean to say that it’s completely wrong to have a secular dream, but I believe that there should be an equilibrium between spiritual and non-spiritual aspirations. One should not be too extreme on either side. Moderation is the key. Ironically (hypocritically?) though, I’ve been too focused on achieving worldly rewards and neglecting to find what my deed is, and what I am going to leave this world as my source of benefit for others, because it is part of my responsibility as a Muslim. The deed need not be grand, just a simple one like doing random acts of kindness, will do.

It seems so sad that I’ve overlooked that part of fulfilling my true life purpose. Astaġfirullāh. But hey, better late than never.

Written by SZA

26 April 2011 at 10:41 PM

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More Than I Can Chew

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For a while now, I’ve been toying with the idea of writing a screenplay. Just for fun. But I never really got around to doing it until recently, when I was browsing through the latest announcements posted on my student portal and saw a recruitment advertisement for a scriptwriter for the Uni’s musical production. I was definitely intrigued since this was the kind of boost I needed to get started on my new interest. On the other hand, I wasn’t sure if I should grab the opportunity. I mean, how could I manage to fit in an extra activity since there’s a lot on my plate right now. An eight-to-five work, weekly nighttime classes, and house chores that I need to attend to. Alright, so it doesn’t look like there’s a lot on my plate, but for someone who isn’t an expert in time management, well, it does seem to be a lot.

After a few days of thinking, I told Mother about it, thinking maybe she could give me her two cents on my predicament.

Me: You know, the Uni is going to hold another musical this year and now the Drama Club is looking for a writer. And I’m thinking of joining the production team. Only that I’m not sure if I could give my one-hundred percent effort and commitment to the club and work at the same time. But I really do want to try something new…blah blah…experiencing college life to the fullest…yadda yadda…I don’t know. So, what say you?

Mother: Why? Will you get paid for that?

Ah, typical Asian parents. Putting more emphasis on education and professional career above all else. As much as Mother being open to most things and generally an easy-going diplomatic person, sometimes she doesn’t seem to grasp the concept of doing things for the sake of just doing them without good solid purposes. Soon after that though, I decided to just grab the bull by the horns and join the production team. Mother seemed to be alright with that. Yay.

So two days after that, I met Hew, a Drama Club ExCo, to talk about the script and the play. I got even more excited about the whole thing after the meeting. And even more nervous, too. I mean, will my script be as good as the ones used in the previous plays? What if I get a writer’s block during script-writing, or worse, a worker’s block? Questions about what will happen are on loop and making me feel mighty worried (and somewhat regret with my compulsive decision to join an extra activity).

Hm. *thinking*

OK, you know what, let’s just sleep on it and cross the bridge when we get there, shall we?

Written by SZA

19 March 2011 at 1:41 AM

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